Hmmm...where do I begin? Sometimes I wonder if there is something inherently wrong with me because it seems like I often get into situations where I'm always the outsider. It wasn't that much like that in South Carolina or in the last year of college, but it was in high school, most of college and now here at my job. I don't know if I just come across boring or opinionated or just difficult to get along with, but I just don't know what else to do. I think I'm a nice, friendly person...I mean I have my faults...I know I can be overly sensitive, but God is working on that in me. It's just that unless I call one of my coworkers on the weekend, I rarely ever am invited to do anything with them. For some reason that just really hit me today at church...they were standing around, talking about how much fun they had last night and yet they KNEW that I had been around and would have loved to have joined them...they just didn't think of asking me. It's not like that is the first time it's happened...it happens quite often. It's like they're an exclusive clique and I'm the outsider, the one they will hang out with if they have to, but one they would rather not include. I know that it's real easy for me start dwelling on this and go into self-pity, so maybe if I just voice it and get it out, it will be better. I don't know...maybe I just still have a lot of growing to do when it comes to stuff like this...it just hurts. I just pray that I can depend on God even more when there are times like this! He loves me, even if there aren't a lot of people (at least at this job) who want to spend free time with me. Maybe I'm too serious? I don't know?

Hmmm...now I feel a little better...it does help sometime to just vent! God bless